Christianity, the importance of experiencing, and overdoing it

I have to admit that at the end, I think I agree with Christianity. Experience is something that works. Although I disagree to call myself a Christian, because in some ways, all of us are Christians, the same as all of us are Buddhists. In a way, we are bits of everything put in together.

Experience can be a very powerful thing to make decisions. Probably because of past experience, we can feel what is the right direction in any situation that we have.

However, the reason I disagree to be a Christian is the pain that the Christian must endure, in order to go to higher level in acknowledging what is the right direction.

Because I disagree in making people feel pain, I prefer not to call myself as a Christian. It may be effective, but I prefer the more natural way rather than constant crucifixions that people do not expect to happen at all. Of course in some ways some are more sensitive to pain or experience than others. And this can be the more natural way of experiencing or going to the next level.

Jesus is the God of Death, excruciatingly painful death it is. And the cross is also located above the Christian grave, the cross is also where Jesus died.

Here is another death. In the West, we are always doing our routines with big portion of our time. We go to work, and then cook, wash dishes, shop, sometimes fix some appliances. The real problem here is that, we don't have time left, because we always do too much routines, at the end, all we think about is the time that we lose, and we are kept reminded again and again about the end of life, that is death, because we keep losing time. One of the bad effects is that, any small job is also very time consuming and we charge with very high price, it literally is very expensive, we are literally giving our lives in order to help others.

In the East, however, Life is life. Even the maid or the drivers have plenty of time to do anything they want. Including to watch TV, resting, do anything at all. Because so much free time, life was never a burden and we don't see that we are losing time, and we are never reminded about death. Sometimes, so much free time, we don't even know what to do with our time except to get bored by being idle again and again, we simply running out of things that we can do.

Here is one major problem, although Jesus is God of death, but, you shouldn't condemn yourself for the entire of your life, living as a Christian, being tortured by death on a day to day basis. Maybe once in several days can be somewhat useful, but too much is not going to be good, such as everyday till the end of your time. This is what I disagree with the Christians, always feel in pain with no valid reason at all. Of course, we can never be 100% of our time as Christians, that would be life in hell. And that is why some people are in the East, and some are in the West.