universal enlightenment and christianity

the most difficult period was after my first few enlightenment. i knew that, christianity was never enough for satisfying my enlightenments, or even to understand my enlightenments, the environment was not good enough to accept it, because of what the christians believe was different from the qualities of universal enlightenment. the buddhists always knew, that if one person managed to achieve enlightenment, he will need to straight away become a monk, or he/she will die very soon after that. the long periods of my enlightenment was very difficult one. i seek and found Confucius, Confucius was good, but not enough to contain my achievement of enlightenment. The only last one, was Buddhism, it was my last resort, i believe there was no more after that. If, Buddhism was not enough, then I would have been not knowing where i am going after that. It was by Buddhism I achieve enlightenment. The world itself is chaos. No matter how strong my convictions are, if the other people cannot understand, believe or cannot be trusted and become your environment of trust, then there can be no more place for you to exist. I have seek and I have found very little, to rely on. You must only rely on yourself, most of the time. And yet, you must learn to depend on other people, which is the toughest one, especially because most of them cannot be trusted too much. Without Buddhism, I would not exist. I needed the environment, the 'Sangha'. _/|\_

p.s. Buddhism may have the most old fashion names and methods, but you'll be surprised, that Buddhists, the really well networked Buddhists, are the ones that know the 'truth'. you can seek and seek, but if you don't come to Buddhists with their plain approach of things, such as the 'fat' Buddha or the not so popular and old atmosphere of Buddhism, you are quite enormously far away from the 'truth'.
the Buddhists have the 'fat' Buddha, as the Christians always make jokes of it, but you must realise, why is the 'fat' Buddha, fat? Sakyamuni Buddha is not fat, and he is portrait as someone who has good balance of appearance. Although we have the 'fat' Buddha, we don't have any suffering or sexy Buddhas anywhere in Buddhist temples anywhere. hehehe, it is amazing what you say, it is amazing how much ignorance you have put in your mind.